Alienated Diminutive Haggard

the beautiful letdown

2011-09-03T21:20:00.003+08:00

i found some blog tonight but the real letdown is the latest post was back from 2008..hahaha..keciwa~

tomorrow i'll be going bck to kl..such a killjoy to work on monday.. work work work and nothing to look forward to anymore..except for my next paycheck.. =p

i hv been eating non stop since raya tht i think that i gained back all the kilos lost during fasting.haha..lts jst hope tht this job will lose me some weight..

bersawang2

2011-06-29T13:03:00.002+08:00

listen to my voice...

wa kari aye... ko ko ro o..
koe kekasete
i'm sleep deprived..ye ke? haha..kalo 12 hous straight br tk deprived la cmtu?
haha
aktiviti skrng : bgun,mndi,mkn,tv,korea,hntr resume,tdo...

best kn jd penanam anggur..
esk saye ade intervw di pj... site enginner.. haha..bolehkah sy mnjd engineer.? lelebih lg apabila ianye adelah site engineer..haha

i'm sleepy though it;s like the middle of the day.. thnks

malu seumur hidup

2011-04-10T20:17:00.003+08:00

omaigodddd...

i'm like super embarrassed..
semalam celcom call untk set up voice mail..
then aku ingt main2 trus aku record smbil half menjerit
'wasssap wassap we 2NE1'
ahhaa well then again i thought i never ever gonna use the voice mail service
well i thought wrong

my phone went off today and i went n g charge
rupenye i got a call from a classmate and * left a voicemail

mesti la die dgr welcome voice tu

ok malu gle nk pengsan ok
haishhh

then tk tau nk delete cmne..

malu seumur hidup~

mari rakan rakan

2011-04-10T17:27:00.004+08:00

i hate this about my current self
constantly checking my phone out for ur text
i mean what the heck man??!!
hahah..u did this to me and u don't even know
how touche..haha

i have nothing more to say
except that i love rainy days
make u stay indoor and sleep or watch none other than B** ***G
haha

on a totally different story:
ok sy nk kecik ht sedikit di sini coz,
da bnyk kali da jd cmni
smpai mcm da serik da nk tny..
kecik ati wo...
lenkali sy akn pk 25 kali b4 ajk..
thnk u very much ok...

sy nye poster da siap..
wooohoo...
haha...berbangge ngan hasil kerje sendrik

esk test rock..nk std mls..
meh layan one tree hill dulu rakan rakan...

I NEED TO KNOW!

2011-04-04T21:57:00.001+08:00

arghhhhh.. rs nk jerit jerit..
but keep it cool wahai dayana..
dayana nye roomate kate kte tkle buat dayana penat
sbb nnt mlm kng die ngingau kacau tasha
haha
i seriously dnt think 'mengingauan' adelah seserius ini
but brp org da kene
haha
sorry peeps....

actually, i seriously dnt like this me
i keep thnking abt the 'stuff'
i long for the time when i have no care in this world
when i have no worries
then * have to came along n ruin my good mood streak

harini aku sgt malu
seumur hdup...
jnj malu tk tpu

malu pun tk semalu aku
sejak ble nth aku jd cmni

n the worst thing is that i am being ignored..
it's like i was nothing
well if u want to know
i am something if u see it or not
i am someone

so jst say it right to my face what is ur intention
coz trying to figure u out is like
trying to not eat a cupcake when it is right in my face
IMPOSSIBLE

ape yg ko nk eh? aku sgt curious jnj tk tpu
but then again how to stop myself from contemplating
to stop myself from wondering what will be

kang aku beriye aku yg malu sengsorng
mals r
i hate this part rite here

it is so much better when i have nothing but big bang in my mind
haha
they dnt dissapoint me thats for sure

but smpai bile nth.. i have to take risks
but is * worth the risk i took????
only God knows...

is there any future or ure jst playing me
I NEED TO KNOW please...

am i just waiting for the nothingness...

something for u to read..

2011-03-31T23:44:00.002+08:00

sbenanye.. Aku...tengah...jeles...
Jeles...sbb..ap...jgn..ditny...
Tp wae daega jels daega chongmul mulla
I'm making words as i go
results of wtching hangkuk videos almost 6 hours a day(give or take)

Mulla...mulla..mulla...
sashi...It's nothing to be jeles abt
I did it all the time,bt when it's not in my shoes.

i pray~

2011-03-13T17:25:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wish ppl would read what i wrote, most other times i wish that it's just me reading it over and over again.. but what the hecks...*now i'm just chilling, feels like i'm healing*(dbsk's changmin wise words) tenkiu tenkiu (salute salute)

ok sekarang emosi tk normal sgt.. but i dnt thnk it's emotion though..more like perasaan kot..hahaha..same ke?tk kn..BM aku sejk beberape tahun tinggl sekolah ni mcm nth ap2.

what i can say is:

*i really (chongmhul/chincha) hope that u are what i thought u would be

coz i my head i keep building you up and putting you up in pedestal that i myself cannot reach high up that level

*now is not the time to main main ok.. i'm currently exactly 23years, 4months and 10 days.. (dont men-24 kn saye) so the clock is ticking..(mcm la tue sgt pun), so desperate or not, i would really like it(chua) if i already found someone if u know what i mean..

*hahaha..n the best/embarassing(most) part is * didn't even know..hahahah(sile la muntah muntah sambil gelak guling2)

* terase mcm memalukan diri sendri selepas membuat pengakuan ini..

* hahahahaha..(i want to shout out loud...)

a little something i like to say to your face but obvie i can't

2011-03-01T22:29:00.000+08:00

your persistance, it strangles me,

smothering me,envies me

can a man be that way?

can a man be so bold

day by day.you stay

to linger, to stole

one glance from afar

your pursuit takes half of your life

half of your heart

to wait for me to arrive

i am a fool to not catch a glimpse of your light

i thought you knew

three flowers lay withered

with their heads in a bow

slowly resigning, slowly dying

as if they know, they foreshadow

side slances,murmurs

going on and on,

but with grace i pose

sparing your life,regards

i'm dried out excuses,

i sigh deeply as the walls caved in

i held my finger to my mouth

holding my silence

i persist my eyes to stray to you

it's easy

leave me i said

let me be and go live

i pushed you away with these piercing words

to let you know that i love you

just not the way you do

but you do

i'm exhausted, and you

you do too

Again and again..

2011-02-18T18:46:00.012+08:00

the love of my life, dong young bae <3>

with the cutest eye smile ever seen..(including dae's) keke

with his signature wink..no other that khun..(komputer) lalala

2 pm's dance machine (after jaebom) : junho..

taec-the body- yon.. lol *drools

my favourite maknae, ever so hot chansung..

my presious shirtssssssss

currently listening to 2 pm's again and again...
chansung is like SUPER HOT.. no doubt bebeh..

skrng ni tgh counting days for bigbang's comeback.. on the 24th feb..it's been nearly 2 years sincce they release their last korean album, with the title song 'Sunset Glow'.. na noemul saraghe~
the member is sporting new haircuts..keke.. but bae's is always the same..once he's comfortable with smething, he will kepp it.. dulu die pnh order 100 pieces of the same wife beater..coz bae's like that.. <3>she's a bad girl i know, but here i go again oh no..keop!

last tuesday i practically dragged aina to folo g Uniqlo farenheirt.
the reason: to get my hands on the precious Bigbang tshirt..hahaha
abes rm140 aku..tkpe demi my hubbies..lalala

khun's part on 10 points out of 10
lalalalalala, pretty baby, lalalalala be my lady~ khun is SOOOO cuTEE

i guess i'll be spending the weeknd at home je kot..
seswai ngn ketiadaan duit..haha
no worries i've got a whole lot of bigbang in store in the 1tera hdd..hahaa

annyeo goodbye adios...

insomnia macm dong young-bae a.k.a TaeYang..

2010-10-07T10:05:00.002+08:00

rasenye lame da aku tk update blog kt sini.. azwin yg selalunye newsfeed ni dipenuhi ngn blog die pun tk tau mane menghilang..senyap je bdk edinbrugh tu..
so here's the thing, mlm td aku sgt la tk tdur.. thnk u very much.. satu rumah terkejt dgn satu berite yg aku seeram sejuk mndengrnye..
seriously when they say 'ignorance is bliss, they really mean ignorance is bliss'. now that i'm no longer ignorant to 'the thing', i'm no longer in bliss. crap with a capital C..

aku tersgtlah mengatuknye Tuhan je yg tahu, aku jwb oral German td dgn keadaan separuh sdr. ap bnd frau ckp pun aku tk fhm.. i no longer can be alone in the room.. with this thing hanging over me, clouding my every thoughts..

but, life must go on they say.. and indeed they will... doakn keselamatan kami semua...

and to one of my dear friend, i wish you tabah menghadapi dugaan Tuhan ini.. ade hikmah bnd ni ajdi kt ko, n we're here 4 u no matter how scary things get.. ich liebe dich..!

auf wiedersehen lieblings.. <3

esk blk uma

2010-09-02T12:50:00.001+08:00

esk blk uma esk blk uma esk blk uma esk blk uma esk blk uma esk blk uma esk blk uma esk blk uma esk blk uma esk blk uma esk blk uma esk blk uma esk blk uma esk blk uma esk blk uma esk blk uma esk blk uma esk blk uma esk blk uma esk blk uma esk blk uma esk blk uma esk blk uma

exited sungguh..pdahal kalo blk uma kene kms uma..bsuh lngsir la ap..haha..

assmnt society

2010-08-19T00:54:00.001+08:00

skyping..ngn azwin..smbil stdy n buat assmnt society..

terharu tk aku sebut nm ko awin?hahha

FFOOODDDDD..love them cant live w'out them

2010-08-05T23:15:00.001+08:00

Figure 1 : Pizza nth ap aty nye
Figure 2 : My 'Nallie;s Big Bite' Chcken burger(very big indeed)
Figure 3 : Masnor Hashim's nasi lemak ayam
Figure 4 : Azie's spagethi meatball
Figure 5 : Rainbow tree..mango, strawbeey n kiwi all in one
Figure 6 : Nallie Nc gorng syuek nye

Location : Nallie's, USJ

Time: after hntr awin ke LCCT blk London ok

Keadaan after mkn: ngntuk tk hengat ye rakan2

ECG : Foundation Engineering

2010-08-02T09:45:00.005+08:00

punching shear failure, baringcapacity nth ap nth dr yasmin ajr kt dpn tu..aku bkn dgr pun.. hrni kls foundation buat kat lab com..so mmg la tk cncntrate kn..tk selesa sungguh.. ni aku nk ngarut ni..hehe..

currntly reading to kill a mockingbird..story about harper lee's experience growing up in alabama with her siblings..mng bnyk award buku ni..n pnh ,mng a president's award cenggitu la.. cover yg baru ni untuk 50th anniversary edition..

tk bc abes pun lagi..

ngtuk..lapar..

aktiviti weekend ini...=)

2010-08-01T13:45:00.009+08:00

encek bobo...dgn matemngantuknye
alias n syah
test power..
tipu je ni..haha
najwa yg obsessed dgn organ ni

so weeknd ini i had a blast.. tk sie sie najwa letak name ku dlm list untuk apresiasi seni smlm..haha..we played music all day long..tq very much..we played n played till my fingers wanna srt bleeding.. incik bobo adelah org tukang incharge ktrng..he's sessionist. he's worked with anna rafaeli, pak ngah n lagi2 ade la.. so it's an honour ktrng dpt berkjasama ngn die.. sessi pagi die terngkn psl what is music, then we played lagu baru..well, they played mostly..i sat down n watched..haha.. still to work on those lyrics.. then session petng plak ktrng men lagu tradisional..rebana, la,kerinching ghazal la, inang..hehe...then ktrng men music latin..conga,bongo, calypso..syok r..mengisi mase lapang..

encik bobo:kenape berenti men syaitan..wahahhahah..funny

a new beginning..

2010-07-05T15:30:00.002+08:00

first day back to class..8.30:foundation eng. br first day da strt blaja..huhu..best btol..
still not enough sleep n rest, so pg kls dlm keadaan drowsy..
ptg lmbt g kls, as usual..
mlm ni tgk toy story..sape tknk tgk tkyh ikot.hehe..
sb mslhnye aku tk tgk lgi kot..yes walopun da brthun kuarnye..
i used to be a working girl, so no time for games n movies anymore la time tu..so bnyk movie i missed..
time to make it up..
tunggu time pkul 4, ade lab..envrmnt..
semoge lec best.. =)

something new

2010-05-22T16:28:00.003+08:00

dok uma takde tenet, so jrg update n online blog
last week, srng lagi ahli keluarga one of my friends pulang ke Rahmatullah..
da takdir..nk wat cemane..kte hanye bole bg nasihat, but the pain only they can bear...
it's like berturut2 n kinda weird, but who am i to questinio HIM..
al-Fatihah...

what's new with me?
well, i have no life right now
i wake up at the crack of dawn, n balik pth2 till theres no other activities..
tdo, g keje, blk keje, tdo..
huhu
what a life...

work's kinda good..good ppl,some pervs but it's all good..
i met up with an old school friend of mine, shantha kumari..seb bek..

saye keje department of jalan..so keje wat jln je la..n skng tgh bnyk project.. n en.fuad bnyk gle kc ktrng kerje..keje bosan plak tu.. huhu...
stiap kali dtg ofis, ktrng count the time to go back..
n ni jkr hilir perak, so it's in charge for mn cities near t.i..so projct jauh2..hehehehe.. best jln... en karim ajr bnyk, en, sinniah ajr bnyk,wak kahar..sume ok r...
haaa..tu je la..

random thoughts...

2010-04-23T14:22:00.003+08:00

location :lib lvl 6..spttnye stdying math..
Just some randoms scribble on the math notes..

I deconstruct my thoughts on this piece of paper,
It's all that i can do to keep the memory of you from blurring my vision,
I told them that i moved, but i dont think i am,
I tried and i tried,
I'm slipping through the airwaves,
But it's nothing new, i thought i knew,
The books,the stationaries,
Are no distractions, the sound of Dark Blue, the quiet room, the world's burning swallowing me inside, slowing me down,
Alone in a crowded space, the irony, perputual,
all are my pregogative...

Library tingkat 6

2010-04-15T12:56:00.002+08:00

sekarang saye tgh kononnye std di library tngkat 6..bersame nita senit n najwa jawa2..hahah
1st paper 21st april..btw it's jz nxt week nye rabu..cuak..sedikit...haha..mengantuk..banyk...bajar sedikit, men sims banyk..hahah.. tahap kelaparan, bese2 saje..nthla..tak dtg mood nk std dgn berkomit lagi..tunggu dkt2..haha..after exam nk pindah rumah..dr blok 3 kristal, ke blok 2 kristal(jauhhnyeee)..but barng ktrng bnyk gle kottttttt..cemane nth nk angkut... 10hb 5 strt prektikal n to be honest i look foward to that..working world as they would say it..so, aufwiedersehen meine freund.. liebS

kepokaian

2010-04-03T15:12:00.001+08:00

its saturday the weekend(duh), dan saye stuck dalm rumah std..bestnye..td da pokai rm100 bela prntr..bgusnye...makkkkkkk..nk duit....hehhee

where do you go when you're lonely?

2010-03-19T20:44:00.001+08:00

where do you go when you're lonely, where do you go when you're blue uu uuu uu, where do you go when you're lonely, i'll follow you... when the stars go blue..

p/s jari aku sakit..but it's worth it

Emergency 999

2010-02-22T01:44:00.002+08:00

skng kul 2 pg n aku br balik dr ospital klang..
td aku blk dr t i dlm kul 7 cmtu..mood sgt hepi bese r..normal..siap nari2 tgk nikhoon n tae yang..then dpt satu phone call dr nizam ckp jijah n syu eksiden..tersentak jantung aku..nizam tgh benti trffc lite die kol aku..die ngn ron..after beberape minet die kol lagi ckp jijah tak sdr, terbrng ats jln..syu ok, die yg kol nizam suh dtg..kt dpn jpj kat are pdng jawa..syu otw blk dr amek jijah dr padang jawa..syu cm trauma, blur2..terkejut..aku dgn paniknye n tk dpt berpikir g tpon si khif.. sampai2 mmg aku rs jantung aku mcm nk luruh rsnye..bebudk tu sume ade da..jijah msuk emergncy room, syu tgh tunggu nombor kn pngil, sbgai pskit luar.. sedih n takut rs cm nk nges tgk syu, cnt remember a thing..aku da rso gle..sket2 die tny, kite ktne ni?kte kt penng ke kat shah alm, knpae aku tk ingt pape?aku td ngn sape?mane jam aku?bole katekn every 5 minutes die tny..sedih sioot tgk die cmtu..aku yg lemah longlai..lutut, kaki n lengn die ok..bwk g xray pun ok je..tp die mngdu skt kat are pinng so doktr mskn die n jijah dlm wad under observation smpai pg sok tgk cmne.. so esk br nk g tgk drng cmne sume..

aku td da nges da..hahaha..kelaka pn ade ble trngt blk..dayana mmg tak ske ospital..i mean, sape suke kn..

nth, aku ske mmbyngkn sesuatu perkare itu over sgt kot..

lets jz pray everythng's ok...

dlm kls hgwy.hehe

2010-02-02T10:28:00.001+08:00

tak berjaye aku nye attemp.hehe.tkle copy paste la.dlm kls highwy ni.dpn aku cik wardati.heheh.k ciaou beaches..=p

my dinosaur life...

2010-01-30T22:35:00.003+08:00

you guys should just humor me..i know it's annoying

my dinosaur life is awesome...

no kidding here..

always love..lalalla

2010-01-30T21:08:00.001+08:00

omg..i frikkin love nada surf...!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Forever and Almost Always..

2010-01-28T23:14:00.004+08:00

lame tak update blog, bz la katekan..bz la sgt..haha..
br balik dr mkn nc lmak jati, paastu terus nk tdo..mmg bgus..

esk lab pkul 8.30, tp ktrng sll lewat..kalo bgn awal pun, mmg akn dtg lwt, tatu np..nature kot.

last week dtg lwt, cik hazwani da pndng seblh mate da..huhu..time ktrng dtg awl cik tu tak dtg laks..huh..

>>In an ordinary fairy tale land
There's a promise of a perfect happy end
And I imagine having just short of that
Is better than nothing
so u'll be mine, forever and almost always,
It ain't right to just love me when you can
Oh I won't wait patiently
Or wake up everyday
Just hoping that you'll still care <<

karut marut

2010-01-20T02:18:00.002+08:00

today equals drma..da pkul 2 aku tak tdo.. sedh+bengang harini..sume org berlumbe2 letak hati dan perasaan mereke kat status facebook..bole mnybbkn sume org sala fhm da bole buat or gaduh..i long for the much simpler time where there's no internet and no facebook..ahahaha

perangai seko seko buat aku pening..cm hape da jd..maybe we need to not spend that much time together..huhu..maken lame, maken sume perangai buruk kuar, maken org menymph..

nthle, i wish we didn't come to this..but ap nk buat.da jd da pun..skng patt hendel masalh dgn care se adult yg mungkin..jgn smpai gado suda..

karut je sume ni..huhu..

layan..~

tade keje..wat smbik skyping ngan awin

2010-01-19T15:31:00.004+08:00

skng ni mmg btol2 aku in a relationship ngan azwin yusof,hari2 dok skype ngan die..
bkn skjp2 skype nye, skali sejam 2 jam..ahaha..parents yg baik kte ni yek awin..so aku tade kje...

>>wayar serselirat : wayar lptp, wayar hdd, earphone satu, headphone satu, wayr cooler,wayar webcam..ahahha..

>>jam sunway captain quack..comel..ahhaah

lines of the day

2010-01-19T14:38:00.002+08:00

so many people are looking to me, to be strong and to fight, but i'm just surviving
i may be weak but i'm never defeated and i'll keep believing, that cloud with the sweet silver lining...

>>lines of the day<<

sengal2 badan..

2010-01-17T23:06:00.004+08:00

so, today's 17the January 2010..happened to be my friend's birthday..so, happy birthday incik sollah the big 23..sgt tue..hepi2 selalu.. =)

aku plak msih sengal2 badan, sb smlm spnjg hari aku d sunway lagoon..huhu
g ngan aty, syuek, jijah n mila..our big girl's day out..

sunway's not too bad, but i prefer the rides at genting though..
and i get even more tan, like somehow the tan before's not enough..mcm red indian da aku..

n right b4 we masuk sunway, something happened..so cemas and funny if u think abt it bnyk2 kali..hahaha..

ktrng pnjt tngge tinggi gles nk men flying fox 3 kali kot..tp tkde rezeki..huhu..atv's cool man..

lokie lookie here, what i found...=)

2010-01-11T16:43:00.003+08:00

look what i found..hahah..i miss them! fa and ainul........

miss rocking out with you guys..evnthough i mostly sucked n fa tk hafal lgu..

9 januari 2010

2010-01-10T00:26:00.002+08:00

so, aku br pas mndi2..br smpai uma td..pg2 td da kua uma, nana amek, g ptrjy..da rase cm home da uma kak yong..cu, mkteh n mak dtg arini..sb kak yani masuk ospital..darh naeik tinggi..lets hope kkk yani and 'mohd. rayyan' selmt..lgi 2 bln je..phtu dpt aku ank sedare br..huhu..thn ni 3 ank sedre aku...aku n nana da siap reke2 nm da..antrnye, mohd. julian baker, nor brooke davis..hahhah..kelaka..exitd ktrng

then, ktrng lunch kat cyber..restaurant saba'.arabic food..sedap gles die nye nc arab and kambing..

pehtu blk uma, ade 'meeting' pntng..hahah..kelaKA mmg kelaka..mari doa segale brjln lncr..

then g uma mak long, tgk kk yani, sb die da kuar ospital..thn aku n nana g the curve.. bli cupcakes...(tringn) ingt nk tgk movie, tp da lmbt sgt...ktrng g jln je g ikea..bli botol air..huhu..

tu la..esk, ade seminr cidb..mls gles nk g..tp trpkse.bg awl lgi..br nk rilek..

memalukan diri sen dri

2010-01-07T11:31:00.003+08:00

aku telah memalukan diri sendiri harini..tk pnh2 aku berbuat bgini selama ni..(mybe pnh tp tak ingt pun) haahha
teruk gk r..(walopun tade lr teruk sgt)heheh

tapi lek je r...cool..or bajet cool..
it's ok sometimes to make fool of urself..

let's just hope that years from now when i see this, i'll remember what's this abt..
=))

Holiday vacation..

2009-12-17T12:45:00.003+08:00

so now aku kat port dickson..da 2 hari ade kat sini..family vacay..sgttttttt best! did i mention i have the best family ever! wouldnt trade them for the world..hehe..

sabtu aritu, after a couple of days balik dr peneng, ktrng g ipoh untuk bersiap sedia untuk ke genting..(again)..huhu.. so, sabtu comes, then ktrng gerak g ipoh..g uma mak teh..then pg ahad, ktrng gerak pepagi bute(tak bute da after opah decide nk patah balik sb tak sure die da tutup water heater kat uma tu ke blum)..ahaha..anyways, ktrng gerak ke uma kak yong di putrajaya..becoze, ari ahad happend to be yop yen@ aka zaflin nye bday..kak yong plan a suprise bday party..huhu..fun that is..sume org ade..cu, pkcu n the crew, mk long, pak long, kak yani, abg joe, izwan n sume org la..huhu..

then, petang tu aku, nana n izwan pergi alamanda utk tgk new moon..huhu, sgt menyesal tgk..(i literally fall asleep during the movie)..no offense anyone..it's just my opinion.. mimi n iman plak tgk zombieland..

so, at the crack of dawn esoknye, (5.30) ktrng kn bgn untuk bersiap untuk ke genting..huhu.... untuk mengelakkn traffic jam.. singgh breakfast kat gombak.. then up we go..huhu..

sgt best..seryes walopun br je aku g.. i finallt pluck up the courage untk nek space shot..huhu..jnji GAYAT..!! ahaha..aku ttp mate..best g pepagi bute ni..org tak ramai..da tghri org da ramai n it's started to sejuk..huhu.... ktrng nek corkscrew 2kali..huhu..sb tade bnd len nk nek da..sume da nek..

mlm br balik..the nxt day, aku nana n iman g mid valley..cdng nk tgk ninja assasin, skali ramai nk mati org..ktrng end up having lunch n jln2 je

then ptg tu, aku gerak g pd ngan iman, kak yong n yop..nana tak dpt cti..huhu

after 2 days of mandi laut, aku da officially gelap..huuhu..berbelang..

so, skang tgh ujan..so i'm onlining while watching the rain kat luar rumah.. tgk the beach,..mlm ni drng nk g melaka..mkn seafood..(smlm drng buat steamboat pun aku da muak)..

so, ktrng akn balik esok ke ptrjy, then kalo meeting mak teh is canceled, then we'll be staying until sbtu or ahad la kot..

i had the best time eveR!

	Tyler Hilton - When It Comes .mp3

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org tak phm susa

2009-12-12T13:15:00.001+08:00

seriously, aku mmg yg tak smpai hati nk ckp dpn2
seryes tak reti
tkt org kecik ati ngan aku
tp ckp berkias2 bkn org phm pon
susa btol...
hurm...

tkpela..
give some time..
nnti bgtau r..

Confession of a closet poet~

2009-12-04T15:21:00.004+08:00

So it's been a while now since i'm home and i'm not saying i dont like it, but it's different now. seems empty. Makes it hard to be here. But i have to. Aku kene kuat, for them. Eventhough inside i'm just a little girl. seeing all these pictures, all these stuff, it's just not as easy as i thought it would. Aku kasihnkn drng, aku nk tolong tp aku bole buat ape?? there's nthng i could do to help deal. Aku tak kesa diri aku, coz i know i'll be fine..

Aku bukanlah jenis yang ske open up to people. It's just not me.I just don't. I prefer to keep it inside. i dnt know, maybe aku tak ske org tau aku, atau maybe kalo aku gtau org, it makes it seems more real you know..and i dnt want it to be. i like my fantasy land. So, i prefer to keep it inside and pretend it's all ok.Pretend that it's not happening.Pretend that i'm happy, pretend that i'm this tough person when i'm not like that at all. pretend. pretend. pretend.
I never really talked about my dad with anyone.never.coz i hate ppl shooting questions, glancing the kesian look,acting all nice all of the sudden but more important, it's just too hard.So i do what i do best.Pretend.Hide..

I refuse to let anyone in, when i have this longing in my heart, that even the bestest friend, the cutest shoes or even the most rocked out song can't fill. Deep down, i wanna love, i wanna be love- again. I guess this past experience really jdkan aku serik.Sungguh sakit dulu.I was a mess. a wrecked.literally a walking zombie when it ended. So now, i'm on this mission to find this perfect guy, when i know it doesnt exists. I myself am not perfect. I want a person to love my like nathan loves hayley, like seth loves summer and like navid and adrianna, and all these TV shows i'm watching dont exactly helping. The truth is, they make ppl dream, hoping that 'this' person would come along when it's just fictitious characters.THEY ARE NOT REAL.You're bound to get your heart broken once in a while. I mean that's life isnt't it?i know that..in THEORY..not real life.just dnt know how to apply i guess.im just this weak pathetic soul wanna break loose of her rock-hard shell looking for sunshine and FAILING..BAd. I dnt want symphaty and i'm sure as hell dnt want to be label desperate.Which clearly i'm so not.(honest). I'm just a normal person. Mybe it's just not the time yet..i dnt mind waiting and i might as well have fun while i'm at it.

Seriously, this is the most honest and open i've been with myself or other ppl. All this while, i've been filling this site with stupid stuff, un important stuff, stuff that doesnt even matter. coz i dnt want ppl to read and judge..like i said..i hate labels..

i'm just a girl, like any other and i'm just waiting for someone who says 'just give my your heart and i promise you, i'll guard it with my life'. :) (sebenanyetu line felix ckp kat brooke, s2 one tree hill)ahahah

but anyways, like i said, never believe anything you read here..

p/s
and btw zul,aku takdela giwang, more like a closet poet :p

all i need is this earphones and my songs~

90210

2009-12-04T15:05:00.000+08:00

so practically, i havent written anything in months and i'm thnking that i have to write this one..PRONTO..haha..(i'm lame i know)

i've been watching 90210 for 2 days straight now and i'm(currently in episode 15) stopped watching, literally to mengabdikn this feeling 4ever..haha..

its only the 1st season, i had it on dvd, but i've watched it before on astro but skipped sane sini only watching when i went back home.. but the feeling when you watch it for like 8 hours straight(yeah, i have nothing to do anyway), is kinda different.. it's not actually as good as the o.c or anything but seriously the whole time i'm watching what goes through my mind is ty collins is so hot, ty collins is so hoT! BoiLing HOTT! hahaha.. what's not to love?? tall,the blue eyes,the dishevelled face hair, the whole package..dayana gile..just humor me. :) i know..but turns out, he's the father..

but the real catch is, really navid.......yes and yes.. i'd say yes to him anytime, really..if he exists..(sigh) the persian dork can melt me anytime of the day buddy..i tell ya.. he's not that cute but the dorky personality,the sense of style,seriously, i'm down..really tickle my fancy ;) i have an eccentric taste in men that think that these kinda men only exist on tv, on movies..yes, thats why i am who i am..(you-know-what)..no questions there.. and then he's gotta kick ty's ass for not being responsible..how can a guy be any sweeter than that??

and liam..the bad boy.. girls would probably be into bad boys like liam.he's an enigma even naomi couldn't figure him out..but, then he's being this guy who stalks naomi's facebook page just to know what flower to make of her corsage.. what bad boy does that man? they make a sweet couple, kinda like blair-chuck relationship..let's just see how this ends.. shall we?

ethan??what about him..hurmm..he's AVERAGE..nothing new..a jock, cute,gets the lead girl(annie), plays lacrosse, the whole nine-yard...

lets talk about the girls plak..on the top of my list is of course naomi..the evil bitch with a golden heart.. i'd kill to have her as my best friend..she had adrianna's back pretty much most of the time. she's unpredictable, always changing her hair(pulled both off, straight or curly) and she's always on, all the time..she has a gorgeous face, not ur typical pretty girl.. next in line is adrianna..i usually like brunette, redhead then br blonde but, special case.. she's always smiling and she is a strong girl..she gets through her pregnancy and all of her drugs prob and dn forgt abt the goss in the school.. it takes a really tough person to get pass that.. then there's silver..she's like me the most i think..pretty weird and feels like throwing up when ppl says 'i love you'.haha.. except the bipolar part..huhu..

and that's abt it..annie didnt make the cut.. sorry...

[i have nothing better to do, i know]

resume

2009-12-01T15:19:00.000+08:00

saye berumur 22 tahun, san saye tak reti buat resume
ahaha
tlg la...teruk btol

LAme-OO

2009-11-08T05:21:00.001+08:00

seyes poyo gle..jnji tak tpu
tak tahan aku..
wakaka
hehe
suda la...
getting bored.......
next channel plz..
more rerun oh so lameO

tu someone yg ske bace blog aku ni

2009-10-28T04:12:00.001+08:00

wakakaakakkaakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakka
sambung lagi
waaakakakakakakakakakakkakakkaakkakakkaakkakakkakakkakakakak
lagi
ahahahahahahahhahahahahhahahahahhahahahahahhaahahahhaahhahah

seryes aku gelak cm hape je ni
hehe

maafkan daku~

While Diving, drink the water(direct translet) ahaha

2009-10-20T14:05:00.002+08:00

Ich liebe Musik.Ich möchte singen Lieder die ganze Zeit.

Maknenye, i love music, i always sing to the songs..

ahaha..intro drama German aku..Ptg ni edit drama bg suda..esok nk anta

Mlm smlm after test 3 geo aku n tasha g r nk jumpe Cik Faizah, nk tmbah mrkh test 2 sb die ade silap tande, last last tingal aku, zazu, tasha, and yunuss(double s). Aku n zazu da jnji nk g kuar mkn ngan bebudak ahli kump yg tgh setadi di level 4 tu..Then cik suh teman die g anta die ke kete die..aku and tasha g r..smpai kat paking tu, ktrng sembang2 r, then ktrng g mkn kat sempeneh. And half the conversation topic revolves around none other than Cik Faizah's Golden Boy, Botak..skit2 botak..ahahaha (tak jeles yek)

Sembang sampai kul 2 lebih gk r baru ktrng balik..

Skang aku ade kat level 4, wat assmnt geo..drng wat(najwa n tasha), aku wat assmnt MATLAB yg kn present this jumaat....Sambil menyelam minum air..

ptar ntah bape ni..(shout to Farieza Hanis Hashim Bakhtiar)

2009-10-19T16:44:00.003+08:00

Time now 4.46 waktu malaysia..ahaha
aku tgh tunggu mase nk masuk kls math..td kles numericl 2-4 then lepak surau pas asar g ptar abeskn mase
ngantuk gle nk mati jnji tak tipu padahal da tdo lame gle last weekend..

kles math last week 2 hari aku tak g..sb ade test geo (sehari je) lagi seharia aku ngatuk nk mamps gk..ap nk jd r
mggu ni test berlambak gles..test geo (mlm kang), test structure(rabu), test numerical(kames) test constech(sabtu)....berikanlah aku kekuatan nk menghadapi minggu ini..

last week i had a pretty shitty week..well, just towards the end of the week je la..

'ko pehal nk mara aku?aku buat ape ngan ko?besr sgt ke keslhn aku kat ko..?'aku rs mende kecik je..pehal nk besr besrkn crite laks..tampar laju laju kang..'ahahaha

bese r. ppan..gaduh gaduh..but like fa ckp, die tak penting pun dalm hidup aku..aku lgsung tak mintak duit or makn kat die..so, eff u!

Last weekend aku balik uma t.i for some much needed R&R..keeps me grounded..for what ntah..
ahahah

so i'm off to math clas..let us all hope that i last the whole class before passing out sleeping in the class..

Fa>>love ya!!

Life goes on...and on..and on...and on..and on...

2009-10-09T01:56:00.010+08:00

So, ptg ni mud agk tak btoll..rase cm nk marah je..tp tade sape jd mangse sb i was so busy wrapping my head on my wall..so tade mase pk bnd len..
Da abes 2 episode supernatural, rs ngantuk..tdo r jp..then tk smpai beberape setgh jam, jij msg
'day, jom g kayak nk..'
aku on je..tp nk kn gtau ieda yg tgh test bel kat kmpus sb td da jnji nk g pas n buke pose kat a&w.
Mase tu da pkul 5.57 da..then msg n pikir nye pikir..aku pun mnjwb 'ok cpt amek aku, aku siap ni'
trus la ktrng g....(tak seda diri, padahal nk berbuke kul 7 tu)

time nk g tu, (da lmbt da ni),nk cr kunci tak jumpe..lagi r bertmbh emo..bengang gle sape pau kunci uma aku..(menyumpah seranah dlm hati)>>blog penyabrkh aku..
aku pau palk kunci tasha, pastu turn..pas turun br aku cek cek rpenye kunci aku dlm poket suar..ble ntah aku ltk situ..(malu..lari g london~)

g r ktrng..
men men..aku tlupe nk ble air mineral..takpe mila ade..mila pon pose..
pnt gk r tgn..bole muncul muscle.. gagh la aku pasni

lupe lah kejp bnd bnd yg bermain dlm kepale aku ni..
watch the sun set on the lake
couldnt be more romantic~

ahaha
if theres someone to share it with...
live life without regrets..
theme idop...

tp satu mslh
tasik tu kotor..huh!
spoil berbau~

and i wanna take this opportunity to say i'm sorry(lagi lagi)
life move on....
stay healthy...stay gold.....

ahahah
da r ngntk nk tdo

Better Off Alone,,, =(

2009-10-08T15:10:00.002+08:00

I dont even care who reads this,
This has been on my mind these days
Just waiting to be said
Just cnt find the right words for it
Thought i have plenty
>>writer's block<<

row 1&2 have been removed by author=p

i'm loveless and it's true
nobody's ever good enough for me
it's a problem i know, but i cant help it
i'm better be left alone
nobody's gonna tahan with me
i have a big pride and a bigger ego
Please just leave me, don't wait
you'll waste time when there's so many people waiting for you
in months i'll be just a mere memory
I 'know', but i can't do anything about it
i'm not gonna lie to myself and to you
we both know it's never gonna happen~

Penyabar atau tidak?

2009-10-06T21:09:00.002+08:00

Penyabar kah aku??

itulah persoaln dlm kepale otak aku
aku pun tatau..sb aku tak pnh terpikir pasl ni
org ckp mmg aku kurng penyabar
btol la tu agknye
tp mmg aku ngaku
kalo aku nk sesuatu tu, aku mmg kalo bole nk sekarang jugk..
tk le tunggu esok2
n kalo aku bengang ke ap.
mmg tak penyabr langsung rupenye aku ni..huhu
ikut kepale aku je
huhu

beri aku hidayah

2009-10-04T13:52:00.003+08:00

sometimes aku wonder
kenapelah aku ske memasukn diri sendri dalm masalah..
knpe aku tak just dok diam2 n senyap2
pastu nnti jd complicated
aku tak reti nk hendel
pastu mule la bnd ni jd berlarutan..
ni da bnyk da mslh yg tak dpt diselesaikan ni
masalah yg melibatkn soal hati n perasaan org len
kalo aku sorng takpe
*somebody call 911*
ahaha
memain lak
lempeng kang
ape yg perlu aku buat?

L.O.V.E is just another word i never learn to pronounce..

2009-10-02T01:46:00.001+08:00

If I'm a bad person, you don't like me
Well I guess I'll make my own way
It's a circle
A mean cycle
I can't excite you anymore
Where's your gavel? Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
Well sentence me to another life
Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
Cause you know we're not the same
the friends who stuck together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good
This is the best thing that could've happened
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it
It's not a war no, it's not a rapture
I'm just a person but you can't take it
The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They won't get you anywhere
I'm not the same kid from your memory
Well now I can fend for myself

2009-09-15T13:51:00.003+08:00

aku bengang btol la...aku tak tau pape tbe2 org gossip pasl aku..ingt aku artist ke ap..si Y ni, tak abes2..jnji menyampah..aku da ckp, bnd tu tak btol, tak btol..asal yg susa sgt nk pcy..kalo btol aku ngaku je la..sepak laju2 kang..huh.jnji bengang..yg kawn die lagi srg ni pun same..masalahny kalo sekali due takpe, ni setiap kali jumpe ckp bnd yg same..mahu aku tak bengang..
td da kn mate api da ngan aku..buat lagi..peng kang

Lost Soul Forever

2009-09-01T12:15:00.003+08:00

I'm on it, get on it
The troops are on fire!
Ya know I need it, much closer
I'm trading just a little more
Step on it, electronic
The troops are on fire!
I'm much deeper, a sleeper
Waiting for the final trip
Come on it, get on it
I'm carving thru a letterbomb
I need it, loud potions
These drugs are just an hour away
Come on it, electronic
A polyphonic prostitute, the motors, on fire
Messiah for the animals

Cnt get this song outta my head..tlg plz..tuka lagu..plzzz.

huhu..takde keje ni..nk tdo, tp rase rugi lak kalo tdo
*my hands, my hands, my hands off the cookie jar*

tasha da lene da tdo..mmg hantu tdo die tu..huhu..
esok ade test, mls la nk std
skang i have one mission by my mum, that is to go shop for my bj raye..yay!
all expensed paid..best gle
sesape nk ikot..ssile rsvp me secepat mgkin..nnti da penuh..

*All the time I wasted on you
All the bullshit you put me through
Checking into rehab cause everything that we had
Didn’t mean a thing to you*

video itu..aku suda lupekan, skali ade org ingatkn balik..ish..aku da delete da sume bnd tu..tak nk tgk lagi..tlgg...sedih dow..
i thought i'm over it..but aritu aku masuk ieda nye, skali tgk, seryes mmg berair mate aku..
ahhhhh...aku tak nk jd cmni..tp aku nk wat cemane...
tlg la..die je kot..asal aku emo semcm jek..ntah ap2 ntah..sampai ble ntah..tak nk tgk da...
*lari g london*..hahaha
so that i cn never ever see you-know-who's face ever againnnnn..!

i miss my G..lame da tak jumpe..kalo balik pun tgk die cmtu je..takde ms lagsung untuk die..sian die..da berhabuk da, mesti sedih je die tgk aku.i didnt even touch G...next time k G..sorie sgt8....

*i wanna i wanna i wanna touch you, you wanna touch me too*

*Day and night,I toss and turn, I keep stressing my mind,I look for peace but see I don't attain*

post ringkas dan padat

2009-08-27T16:12:00.001+08:00

aku kn cepat
tak solat lagi
da pukul bp
teruk dayana ni
takde ap nk ckp
cume da lame tak post pape
br dpt lptp
aie install vista
sgt styloooo
huhu
jgn jles
mlm ni bbuke di pizza
best
celebr8 awin
da nk g da
tinggljkn ktrng
bye awin'
jage diri

~last weekend...~~

2009-08-18T12:24:00.011+08:00

*tgh tahan 'nyanyi' ni sebenanye..*

So, lst weekend was over, full of drama, ppl talking behind ppl's back, setem, sunway, ben 10(soooo scarryyy seriously),jatuh bangku kat nc lemak cinta sayang(gle malu tak le blah),me learning more curse words in german so that org tak tau aku mencarut kat die..ahaha

harini saye tiada kelas, kls geo pg td suda batal...sgt hepi, tp tak hepi sgt..sb bnyk keje.. matlab,numerical, structure dn mcm2 lagi.. i missed my abg joe's nikah last weekend, all coz of the stupid modul..but my izwan, iman n mum came down to shah alam and we went to mid valley. izwan kesian kat iman..bile lagi die nk berjaln..dulu boleh la, ade abah lagi..skng tade sape da nk bwk die..ktrng g sb nk beli bj raye..huhu..iman bli tshert n satu sua ala-ala codroi(tak reti eje)..slim fit kot..ahha..pandai da pakai skinny yek..mak disapprove but ktrng rase ok je..except that mamat tu kusrus so nmpk cm 2 tiang goal(seprti hasyir), then i pon bli satu sua yg same cm iman tp ppn pny r..

last night ktrng men futsal, beselah, me n ieda then awin n syu but supposedly gjah n pan dtg, but ble tibe, tnggl 5 org je..jijah demam so she's excused..huu..best gk r..men kasar sepak sepak kaki sume..then maki maki haha..bongok bodo sume kuar..but it's all good..memain je kn guys??
i got back my camera!! hhuhu..

mlm ni kn wat slide show structure n tlg buat bel 'org'..huhu..dok uma mmg takle jln keje r...ish8..

aku nk beg nike tu!!

my expenses..

2009-08-10T01:42:00.004+08:00

hai..lame gle da tak pos..aku sbnye bnyk bnd nk ckp, berbuku di hati..tapi ble nk tulis, tak tertulis laks..huhu..skang ari ahad eh, isnin 1.44 mlm..esk kelas CT takde..tp ktrng kn wat assmn numerical tak siap lagi..td konon nye nk buat la, tp msg2 bwk lptp, so online bnyk sket dr buat assmnt..huhu.
so esk walopun tiada kels, kn g awal..grup nngan tasha, najwa n nizam..
ari sabtu aritu g kl ngan aie, min,won-won,lee-piqah,nizam n ieda..nk upgrade laptop..nk tmbh hdd n ram..bwk la laptp yg berat itu ke hulu ke hilir..seb bek la bnyk bodyguard yg membantu..ditambah2 plak dgn brg2 yang aku rs abes satu low yatt ktrng borong..ahaha..

then dr low yatt g ke sg wang, jln2..pnt gle..then dr low yatt g midvalley plak..turn aku la plak nk shopping..tp skejp je sb ade mslh teknikal..tp sempat aku rembat 1 suar jeans..huhu

barai lagi disitu..

ok balik umah trus insap..tak nk bli pape da sepnjg sem..

rupe2 nye aku bermimpi di siang hari...

ptg td, aku kuar g bkt raja ngn ieda n nizam(yg telah ditingglkn ole rakan2 nye)..ahah

aku bli baju 2 n sandal 2..gle kn aku..
aku mmg takle kuar uma r..seyes..

bnd yg aku nk beli yg penting seprti conditioner rmbut, luncheon meat, cheese and mayo tak berbeli pon..ish2....

dayana dayana..tlg nasehat die sket ppl...
check her into rehab..
ahahah

drng tgh gelak2 tgk syurga cinta..best sgt ke? budak tu comellllll ~

da da..g tdo..

bye2 kengkawan....

untuk awin supaye die tak kecik ati..I lOvE You AwiN

2009-07-31T01:30:00.005+08:00

huhu..ni khas untuk awin..
sorry win, aritu aku sempat rembat gmba aku je

after kte mkn kat sini aritu, aku bwk farieza mkn kt sini, then ktrng order kuewtiaw kantonis, bole plak 2 2 eko mkn tak abes

bile ko nk bwk aku g ikea?? hehe..nk ble tumbler..

pendek sj

2009-07-29T00:29:00.002+08:00

nk taruk gk
tak tau nk ckp ap
br curik gmba kat awin
camera i da kn rampas
ole mak i
result last sem teruk
best men futsal
tp skejp sgt
lenkali me lame2
aku tere
huhu
marilah sape nk geng ngan aku
huhu

I miss you

2009-07-08T21:19:00.001+08:00

I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly
Thay you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly

I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by

Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..
The day you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...

I miss you

2009-06-15T12:11:00.003+08:00

it's 12.30 pm and i'm feeling extremely sleepy. I don't normally get sleepy this time of day, but maybe i've been waking up quite early these last week..if you count 10am as early.I usually wake up maybe 12..huhu
This is the first day without me watching Friends for the i-don't-know how many times..and it feels weird but it's not like i'm addicted to it or anything.. I've been watching Friends for as long as i could remember..I remember i used to borrow the Cds(there's no DVDs then) from Fiza Khalida..And for being such great fans of Friends, we had one thing in common-WE HATED ANGELINA JOLIE.and Brad Pitt too..
I remember i used to adore Brad Pitt and Jennifer Aniston..I used to cut out pictures of them off the newspaper and paste them on an exersice book.Boy, i sure have lots of them..Other pictures include Mika Hakkinen, Kimi Raikonnen and 'Nsync..haha..those days..(kanak kanak)

note: i hope jen aniston dengan bradley cooper..that'd be wonderful..and bradley is so much cuter than brad pitt anyway..can't wait to watch The Hangover..

Kat MTV kekadang ade satu slot ni untk video clip 'Y2K Hits and Beyond', so td i watched video clip Blue(yes,the boy band ppl =p) lagu die If You Come Back..Then after that, ade Westlife-Fool Again(just noticed how Mark's resemblace to Mimi my cuzen is uncanny)..i remember, how Marsha and I always discussing about Westlife..haha..But, i don't even remember when i stopped listening to boybands..i still listen to them now, but takdela cm dulu....(love Nicky).
wait, who am i kidding..Skang pon alongside the angry music(bajet macho) i listen to Miley Cyrus, Demi Lovato and Jonas Brothers..
So what..I admit, i like the JBs..Esp Joe..(gle gatal)comel kot die tu..(I too watched Camp Rock, High School Musical and Hannah montana..malu malu)

Note:Take a listen to Demi Lovato's Don't Forget and her collabo with the JBs, On The Line..cool songs..

On a more serious note, I need to make up my mind..after many sleepless nights(listen to Faber Drives's Sleepless Night) and worried day(haha), and many2 thinking, saye rs the verdict is no kot..idk, i don't feel the vibe la..jnji tak tpu..it's supposed to be easy..but if almost 4 months of
consideration pon takle decide, then of course there's something wrong..knape dulu sng je ek..(pelik pelik) (Lovebug perhaps?)
It's just not right..maybe i'm not ready, or maybe i dont think i'm ready just yet to tinggalkan my lifestyle i've been happily living for the past almost 2 years after you-kno-who(bkn Lord
Voldemort)..and I don't think anyone like that can understand, and the top of my list are understanding and uninvidious apart from many2 other vital aspects.Plus, have you even look at my you-know-what(previous post), and i sure dont need anymore distractions right now..but who am i to say, nth2 esk ke..so tak nk r ckp.. terserah kat takdir (sob sob sob =p )

*i'm not in love, this is not my heart,this is not your song, and i'm not gonna waste these words about a guy(girl supposedly)..To be loved, to be loved, what more could you asked for, everyone wants to be loved, to be loved*
-The Academy Is... - About A Girl -

The One With The Morning After

2009-06-12T11:03:00.001+08:00

hurm...
So the you-know-what da tau, n skang tak tak ape emotion..sedih?mara?kecewa?happy? kinda have predicted but somehow it manage to get worst..my mum doesn't know yet, but izwan mengong g gtau lak..so i predict that tonight world war 3 will terjadi...
Tu la dayana, bnyk sgt main..main main main je keje..

sgt tak bersemangt nk masuk sem br ni..jnji tak tpu..
br kejp td bersemangt..haha..ntah ap2..

to anyone who's reading this, sesape nk sewe umah kat shah alm, bole mengontek sy..umah kat pusat komersial.fully furnished..sile sewe..uma ni lawa..jnji..

*Hey Monday's Homecoming in the back*
mmg my not so sweet mistake..i messed it up..yeah i did..
i've fallen apart..lost all defense,i'm spinning but never mind a single word i said...

Azam baru..yeah..mmg..this is soo me..my you-know-what mmg yoyoing it's way through my diploma dulu..bile teruk sket pasang azam br, then bile elok sket jd lupe daratan n teruk balik..

*i hate when you say how you love me now*

can't understand?i'll slow it down for you..how can you sleep?how can you breathe?

whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa

suda setat merapu degn sgt pesatnye..

di kala ini, rs cm nk tuka coz..huhu da bape kali da idea ini tercetus, tp tau ianya hanya satu idea ntah ap2 n sgt takkan dilayan degn elok di mase akan datg..

*when they say it's all touch and go, i wish i could make it go away, but still you say..when all you know seem so far away, and everything is temporary, rest your head...*

but, life goes on, what ever it is, time heals all wounds..wish me luck for tonight, it's gonna be a tough night... believe me..

and some adjustifications need to be done, if you know what i mean..
if you don't, then screw you..(sgt bad mood skang, so excuse my bad behaviour)

da balik uma....

2009-06-05T17:49:00.000+08:00

da lewat gle skang
konfem balik ni mak mara
ahaha
sj nk update
lame tak update
been busy
seriously
tkpe la
nk balik
ahaha
nnti la cte panjg lebar

The One With All The TV Shows..

2009-05-21T19:39:00.001+08:00

~~ In the night, i hear them talk, the coldest story ever told, somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul, to a woman so heartless..How could you be so heartless? ~~

Yes, dayana skang tgh gle Kris Allen..huhu.. I don't know, i got soft spot for guys who can play guitar..don't blame me, blame them..sape suh drng dreamy sgt..*drool*
and yes, in case you haven't notice, he won.He beat out heavily mascaraed adam lambert..I like adam olso..but i think he's gay..ahaha..then again, who are me to judge..

He's also got this smile that can light up the whole town..ngee...

heartlss?am i heartless? sesiape bole tlg jwb..
agak la..but dulu takde la heartless sgt, dulu i'm heartful(wujud ke pkataan ini)
some incident toughen my heart sekaligus membuatknnye heartless..sedikit kot..

different story..
korng (sape ntah) ske tak kalo ade org constntly criticize you..Your every move, your clothes, your whatever..it's like whatever you do, it never seem enough for them..
'cb jgn pakai ni, buruk la.' 'jgn la buat cmni lagi', jgn la, jgn la, jgn la........
arghHHHHhHHHH!!!
aku tension..!!
sukati la nk pakai ap, nk buat ap...
tolonggggla mind ur own business...
sepak laju2 kang br tau..

on a happier note, i have a new favourite show
NITRO CIRCUS
never fail to leave me laughing out loud rolling on the floor tgk gelagat Travis Pastrana and the gang.. Lst episode my fav skater mR. Bam Margera(others would be Mr. Ryan Sheckler, Tony Hawk and Mr. Danny Way(i dnt even know him)) join the crew when travis drove a i-dnt-know-what-kinda-car-it-is car(i think it's some sort of a musle car) like extremely fast through a desert..haha..nice one
theye're such a daredevil..
skali tu, drng g kat the Grand Canyon, pakai parachute siap2 then buat satu ramp kat tepi canyon tu, then drng nek scrambler then nek ats ramp then terjun dlm tu..then opens up their parachute..gle r..pastu ade satu kali try tu, travis lambat bukk die nye parachute, pastu die jatuh r..sume org ingt die mati da..ahaha..padahal die just ran into bushes of cactus..thorns masuk dlm sua die..hehe
pastu drng buat backflip pkai your little brother pny tricycle..gle kelaka(my favourite)

the producer of this crazy show is none other than bam's mutual enemy, mR. johnny knoxville(hot, also =p)
he once chainsawed the top of bam's red hummer..ahaha..gle org kaye drng ni
baik bg aku hummer tu..though hummer is one of the trucks that have the biggest carbon footprint ever..(others include the GMC trucks)

tp GMC ade kuarkn satu truck yg hybrid..kimora lee simmons bought one

yes, dayana mmg the Godess of TV..ckp je rancangn ape, sume i tgk..tak tgk drama melayu je..
sb setiap kali tertgk, mmg rs nk muntah ijo tu ade..so dont torture my stomach..

nitro circus ni wujud selepas 'life of ryan' habis..the ryan i'm talking about is ryan sheckler..the pro skater

bosan r dok uma..huhu..takde mende nk buat..mak suh keje kat Giant, ade ke?buat lawak btol.. ye ye je nk kc keje..mesti after 2 days nk quit da..hehe..

*Pic 1 : The crew of Nitro Circus
*Pic 2 : Mr. ryan Sheckler with my dream car the Range Rover(sgt ske kete ni)
*Pic 3 : Bam and Johnny Knoxville..doing what they do best..being rascals..
*Pic 4 : Mr X-Games Gold Medalist Travis Pastrana
*Pic 5 : (scream with me shima) Kris Allen the cutie pie =p

2009-05-18T23:26:00.000+08:00

currently i'm at my cu's house kat ipoh.. br larikan diri dr syeera
huhu
she's supposed to go to sleep, but no way with me she's getting her sleep
hasyir n haziq dok tgk the covenant. hazim ntah buat ap ntah
and i have some good news!!
after a couple of tries, i can finally play the verses of hey stephen by taylor swift
hehehehe
next, i'll attempt to try the chorus
kinda tricky
and i'm super late catching it
tomorrow i'll be off to peneng, with aina, faris and addition faris's sister.
hasyir kate die nk ikot
but, we'll see tomorrow
cu bg atau tak

yay and i'm finally getting the charger of of the laptp
my bussines will resume as usual after this
huhu
*haziq is imitating the fight scene involving chase and caleb

ahh..such handsome boys..

seriously..

and yes ppl, there's chace crawford in there, known more to the world as nathaniel or nate in gossip girl..this is way way before nate

he played the youngest of the "Sons of Ipswich

i'm such a sucker for cute boys, but then again, who wasn't

hehe

i'm trying to upload some songs for your listening pleasure

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EC76b0VZQog

life at home

2009-05-14T16:31:00.001+08:00

so, da 4 hari kat umah
n what have i accomplished??
NOTHING
ni br hari pertama aku kuar umah
sb perlu g cc, kalo tak jgn harapla
laptp takle gune, wayar rosak, so skang tgh tunggu belas ihsan nana untuk bg die nye wayar
everyday, i'll wake up at 12 maybe 12.30, but today, i woke up kinda late coz i slept sgt8 lambat mlm td..well, kinda da pagi td aku tdo..tak tau nape takle tdo..pikir mcm2, then saje msg awin, rupe2 nye die pon tak tdo..then i told her whats bothering me, sampai habis kdt
hurmm...

final's over, hope i lepas sume..sturcture bengong palng ku takuti
kecewa ngan structure
to\ime dip pon camtu
ingt le score
tp
cam hampeh
that is another story
wait n see je result yg kuar nnti

next monday i'll be going to peneng
to settle kn psl clearance
then ape lagi
meronggeng la
ktrng g 3 org
faris, me n aina
they'll pick me up kat tepi hgway kot
n i cant wait, my dad promise me that he'll buy me a new bag
hehehe
nk pau habis habisan

life at home

2009-05-14T16:31:00.000+08:00

A Night Filled With Laughter.. =P

2009-04-28T16:37:00.000+08:00

Perikse static 29hb ni, so aku da 2, 3 hari p stadi kat tngkt 4 bilik young engineers tu.Asalnye si Nizam and Ronald a.k.a JoJo(nk muntah) ajk aku g.Then aku pikir, aku dok bilik pon watpe, bkn stdi pon, so aku pun turun la ptg ahad tu.Ade nizam, jijah,mila,aie(dgn sgt tensen),and ade Ron a.k.a skema jawapan atau ahli fikir. Ron adalh salah satu watak utama cerite ni..ahaha..drng wat past year static.Aku pon buatla, hasilnye agak membanggekan la, untuk hari pertama.Then sambung mlm tu, tp malangnye aku g bwk lptp..haha..mmg dtg online shj la..tak stdi pon..then balik lewat dr 11, kene tukis name ngan pakgad.
Next day nye, g lagi, dgn semangat waja, awin pon ade skali juga.ok jugkla..tp ari ni keadaan agk akward la..Aku rs ade org mara..aku rs la..kalo takde takpe la..aku mmg ske perasaan.. Birlah die..
Then ktrng pon stdi n stadi(tp bwk lptp gk mlm tu tak insap2 lagi), tp dengn addition 2 org iaitu Khif n Sollah..stadi pny stadi, tgk2 jam da pukul 11.ramai org komplen lapar..awin dgn daging cincang, daging cincang..ahahah..pastu tak abes2 die mengaco sollah, baling tisu la, balik itu la, ini la..dgn alsan nk cup cake..ahahha *kidding*
Then ktrng decide to take the discussion somewhere else with good air flow condition(bilik lvl4 tu mlm2 takde akon, so mcm ayam bakr aku jdnye)
so ktrng g mCd sekyn ntah mane hale aku tak tau..ahaha
stdi la..time sollah ckp die nk ikut tu aku da tergelak kecil da(gelak besar dlm ati) *jht gle*
mampukan mamat ini stay up lame2?(persoalan yg bakal terjwb di akhir post)
Aku bli happy meal, n dpt billy yg grim n evil tu..(sbnye da abes, aku nk gk, so mamat tu terpakse keluarkn srewdriver untuk bukak display kat counter tu..) ahahah

skip forward>>>>>
da tak lart nk stdi da,(sollah da tdo2 da.)hahaha
nk tunggu pkul 6, then ktrng beridea untuk maen 'truth or dare'
waaa..menguji kalbu..yg tak pueh atinye, acek aku je kene..ceh..menyampah..
soklan2 yg pedassszzz...aku menggigil2 da..tgn sejuk, palms r sweaty..'p
ade satu thp tu, aku taknk dikorek lagi, so aku ckp dare..
drng suh aku pg mntk name ade satu mamt tgh mkn kat lua ngn kwn2 die..mamat tu da r rambut pnjg, tlige penuh subang...gile r..aku dgn takut n malu gle, g r kuar tny

dayana:incik incik, nm incik ape?
incik:(sambil da gelak2 n senyum) nk buat ap?
dayana:(thn gelak)kwn2 saye tu(sambil menunjuk ke arh di mn budak2 tu melekat kat dinding tgh perati aku)
incik:(gelak lagi,kali ini disertai ole kwn2 nye), tikus..ahaha..
dayana:name btol la incik..
incik:ok ok.nm sy affendi..
dayana:no phone?(walopun tak disuruh, sb nk tunjk hebat, aku amek gk)
incik:016-*********
dayana: k terime kasih ye incik
incik:eh, miskol, miskol..hahahhaah

aku pon pulang la ke dlm dgn wajah yg malu gle tp bangge..
bnyk rahsie2 yg diketahui mlm itu..huhu
seronok juge main ini..lenkali men lagi yek
permainan yg menduga jiwa raga..

=p =D =)

CTU 533

2009-04-25T10:58:00.000+08:00

21 Apr 2009 (Exam CTU)9.50 am

I'm on question 32, only halfway through the questions and here I am writing this stupid thing.haha..Actually it's not that stupid anyway.I think this thing i'm answering is stupid..(in case ure wondering, i'm talking about this ctu questions)gle kejam..Yeah seriously..I think i'm freezing half to death now..gle kuat air cond die..name die pttnye penyaman udara, untuk menyamankn udara, bukan membekukan udara..ish88..murke betol..kuku kaki n tgn da biru2 da..

Selambe lak bole benti jwb pekse.. but most of my best works(peraaan) were born in the examination hall..(For example 'Figure You Out' )Maybe the tension opens up the 'idea' door)

Tak tau what i'm feeling right now.. Cam sgt blur+mengantuk.. Semalam tdo hampir kul 3 pagi kot,main who wants to be a millionaire ngan Aina(then tbe2 ad org sebok, tak malu btol)(though someone said '12 am lights out'..sorry incik, sy ingkar sb by 12am, i'd have another 4 chapter tak bace lagi) Lainla incik tu, stdi abes da..Thank God i asked Aina soklan Bhgn B no.3 tu.hehe..
Kononnye nk bgn kul 6pg nk smbg stadi, so dgn confident level:high nye pg set sampai 4 alarms skali. pukul 6pg,6.15pg,6.30pg n 6.45pg.Lagu The Used-I caught Fire and Sugarcult-Los Angeles..(kalo yg tak tau, lagu ni kalo dga secare tbe2 part chorus le sakit jntg..=p)bgn mmg bgn, but bgn nk off alarm.Last skali, pukul 7.30pg br bgn btol2.Gle mmg subuh dinasour r..

*present*

In front of me ad tasha,on my left ade awin, on my right ade minah tak knl(aku rs aku knl minah ni, die cm budak kelas paah time kat matrik dulu, tp takde bran nk tny), then tepi tasha ade satu pillar, and depan pillar ade incik tu..ahaha
Soklan 37 tny psl Piagam Madinah.hurm teringat time kat sane..I went there last year(but it seemed like years ago) Sgt best kat sane..siyesly sgt best.sgt tenang.tempat die sgt bersih n harmoni..huhu.Da pukul 10.11pg.bnyk lagi tak jwb ni..jap eh, nk tuka page soklan jp..Soklan 50, caunivisme??What the fudge is caunivisme?tak pnh dga di dunie..Nmpk sgt tak bc buku..Dayana Dayana.. This is exactly why i hate objective question..There's no real 'exam' feel to it. So tak smngt nk blaja pun ..Konfem sume bnd aku taram.

Awin kat sblh mcm gt mantap..Hbs penuh satu page dengan tulisan.haha..

P/s sebok je, aku ske pkai hood, die pon pkai hood gk..ish8 =p

Ok, i finished the objective questions..haha as if..i got almost half unanswerable questions..Tk reti..i'll get to it later..skang nk transfer dlm brng omr (sume detail harus diceritakan)Tgn aku kale putih=bire da ni..damn these air-conditioners.. =(

(penulisan ini time tu hny sampai disini sj n jikalau anda terkejut knape penulisan ini ended abruptly n wondering kesudahannye, sila bc di bwh)

Time tu 10.45am n tbe2 mamt jge perikse tu ckp, anda ade ms 15 menet lagi..terkejeut gle mk bapk r aku..ingt 3 jam sb(bc dialog di bwh)

scene: awin slps mkn kat dc, singgh bilik dayana

time: a day before final ctu 533

dayana:awin, abes bc da?

awin: mn ade..haha.mls la

aina: tau takpe..aku pun..ape nk jd r

dayana: ape ntah nk jwb esk?

awin: takpe2, kte tdo 2 SETENGAH JAM, then jwb SETENGAH JAmawin,

dayana n aina serentak: hahahha

So, mati2 aku bajet exam ctu 3 jam,,so dgn sepantas kilatnye aku menulis soklan esei tu..seb bek da ade point2 aku da jot down before..gle r..tgn sakit gle n tulisan da mcm cakar lembu da..tak pedulik aku..huhu..soklan obj yg tak berjwb lagi, aku jwb dgn pantasnye..huhu..

MORAL OF THE STORY:

1st thing to do b4 bukak paper soklan tu adelah, untuk mmbac arahan soklan itu dan tgk la bp jam exam itu bakal berlangsung..mesti pasni org2 akn buat peribahsa after tragedy ini..bile ade budak2 jwb soklan salah mase, org akn ckp 'Jangan jd seperti Dayana dengan Soklan CTU(mcm anjing dgn byg2 kalo anda tak phm), and i'll be, wait for it, wait for it- LEGEN-DARY.. =p

mengantuk+malas

2009-04-17T12:07:00.000+08:00

lagi 3 hari je nk final..3 hari shj ppl..!

tp aku satu bnd tak stadi lagi..time nk stadi..ade je bnd akn menggangu

seperti contoh kemengantukan ini..hehe

mlm kang insyallah aku balik umah..yay!! sgt xited..da lame tak jumpe iman ;p

agk rindu da kat die..rindu kat katil..selambe je kn aku..nk final dA..tp sempat lagi nk balik..at first wasn't gonna go home this weekend, but my mum had been so hopeful that i go home, coz nk g tailor(yg nek kete swift) haha buat baju kak fisha nk kawenn..she n my brother izwan promise that we'll go home sunday morning(haha as if)..bangun pon da pkul bp..so i hve to start study early(early la sgt kak dayana oiii)

last couple of days i had trouble sleeping(p/s go and listen to the perishers' trouble sleeping) tak tau nape, mybe coz i slept alone and the lights are on..then after tasha balik n tdo with me pon aku tak le tdo gk..then the sleepiness yg da kumpul2 berhari2 dtg n attack me right on the face..haha..skang i can't even open my eyes right..acek nk tdo je..ni aina tgh tdo coz last night she can't sleep, so emo je tgk..ahaha..

last wdnesday i went to the mooovies and watched 2 movies(no suprise there)

jgn tegur and 12 rounds..jgn tegur: mengong nye cter..first time aku jerit sgt kuat dlm wayang..jnji tak tpu..n after that i tgk wyg through a water bottle..haha..cte tu ok je takde la amntap ke ap, but the producer played the element of suspense-der *wink* and die nye sound effect cm ap je..pch telinge ku

12 rounds: john cena blakon..his first try..menjadi..sgt..da bese tgk die in wwe, skali die blakon..ok la la die blakon tak semantap the rock la tp..15 minutes into the movie, i felt asleep..(sgt takle di bendung), tp skejp je la..dlm 10 menet cmtu..time tdo tu round 3 then bangun da round 8..ahaha..

then esknye ktrng g ftmsk..sgt xited sb tak pnh g fac len slaen civil,electric,mechy n mass com..ahhah..gle exited and started taking pictures..(that's just me ;p)

g jumpe dr. ajab..sgt ancient btol ftmsk tu..(mcm ftsk as in forever the sickest kids)

pintu sume kayu, mcm hostel zama dulu2 (n how i sgt hargai fac aku nye lift)hehe

latro(watch the o.c to find out what it means)

10th April 2009 FRIDAY

2009-04-10T19:09:00.000+08:00

10th April 2009,
10.51am(dlm kelas structure)

Today's mood: exteremly NOT GOOD

Don't know why..i slept kinda late lasy night after some adventurous night(panjat pagar mawar) sb it's way past 11pm.pas balik2 tu, g blik tasha jap, eh lame ktrng bergossip-gossipan..bak kate khif, amboi amboi amboi(smbil menggunakn jari kelingking)..mmg sume kuar r..dose pon bertambah

my mum called early this morning to pujuk me supaye tak pyh balik umah coz seisi kelurga sedang battle dgn sakit mate..so, home is a no no..terpakselah spend a couple of days alone..Aina pun tade..tension jek..After the phone call, takle sambung tdo..then everthing started running through my mind..dgn sgt banyknye..i thought about how hectic this past semester was..sgt la busy..then i thought about my life..the situation that i'm currently in..The exact same situation i've been through 3 years ago..Pt.1 diploma di peneng.Then again, ppl always said that the game never change, just the player..and i think that this so-called ppl are correct.last time it was k & n and this time it's x & y..same situation minus the intensity..ahaha..what are the odds?and i know i had desicions to be made and for sure i dont wanna make the same mistake twice..well, x doesn't actually know much about it or at least i think x doesn't know..it's kinda nice that x doesn't know and it's also kinda not nice...but deep down i know x ade potensi..jnji tak tpu..arghhh pening aku..!! ok, cube bayangkan kalo i'm on with the plan, how on earth am i supposed to tell N..?that's been bothering me since the beginning..seriously..i can't help it coz there's nothing in here for N..sgt la sorry..oh hw my life is so complicated now..(sambil rs cam nak nanges)(ngengader nye dayana).padahal aina br balik uma sehari je(gle gay)

aku langsung tak dgr ape drng present kat dpn ni..tak konsentret lagsung..

6.41pm
td br test m n e, mmg amek test dlm keadaan yg kosong, cume nota je belambak pastu kantoi lak tu..ahaha..seb bek en. tu just letak kat kerusi je nota2 tu..sgt tak pro dlm bab2 toy ni..so, peniruan berleluasa r..ahaha..selambe..si alip, tasha n awin tak abes2 kaco aku psl si ahmed tu, nk mara cm tak, tapi cm kelaka..ahahah..pastu degn selambenye aku cocok alip gn payung..mood aku mcm da ok ok sket..then time balik boleh tak ade 'org' tu pi sembang ngan 'seorng' yg len..to be exact org itu adlh K...ish ish..dayana mengomel sendirian..(padahal tasha dgr jek)
'haa...bgsla,p sembang lagi, bgs2, berkwan la rapat lagi'
dan situasi itu shj telah membuatkan idupku bertambah lagi sedikit di bhgn complicated..huhu..if possible, i don't ever wanna see k's face ever again la, dont wanna have anyting to do wth k, jgn menyemak dunie ku, don't talk to any of my friends...shuh shuh...sebok msk kelas org..(sgt emosi ni)

then balik me n tasha go n eat kat dc..kinda nice la die pny kuewtiaw grg(tringin slps tgk ad org mkn mknn yg same last night)..pastu oder air yg kecik cinonett..ahaha..da sgt biase minum air jumbo, skali minu air dlm cwn bese sekali sedut je da abes..

balik try connct tenet, dpt lak..hurmm..pastu ade plak terjadi satu bnd yg menykitkn hati..agk kecik ati la, ntah ap2 ntah..(tdk perlu di detailkn di sini)..mmg kecik ati tak tpu, tp kte perlu put on a happy face kat sume org..pure2 yg kte sgt la tak ter bother dgn ap yg tlh terckp/jd...plz ppl. learn some manners..=(

tak cte lagi psl si Y ni..si Y ni, kjp ckp len, kjp ckp len..so tak tau mn nk pecy..tp si Y ni aku ckp siang2 r, palng abes pon buddies je...(giving space to some more important person =p )

dayana mmg syok sendri kalo da start writing..

so..i have to force myself to stop..

selamat menjalani hidup sunyi di samping didi sendri dayana...huhu

=) (da jd tande wajip lak at the end of the day..)haha

cerite yg panjang.....sb da pagi ni..aku tak tdo lagi

2009-04-06T05:50:00.000+08:00

skang da pukul 5.53 waktu lptp aku...
sgt sakit bkng..da ddk di kerusi ni since dr pukul 8.30 td
buat bel pny psl..sbnye buat bel takde la lame sgt
nyanyi je bnyk..hahaha
apstu.. dlm pkul 4, tenet laju..mcm2 page r bukk
ni slide show tak buat lagi ni
konfem tak g kelas math kang..
td siang aku g jj ngn ween, ayu n aji
tlg drng shoot short movie drng
haha..aku rs aku le jd director yg berjaye..sgt pandai dlm bidang2 angle ni
sume org aku mrh sb tak iot kate..
esp faz..takle jd artis mmt tu
adeke bkalon p pndg camera
ahaha
semalm..eh da msk kelmarin da
ktrng aku, awin, masnor, pack n jumpe solah di sane telah ke alamanda..(dlm bnyk2 shopping cmplx yg best, ini jd tujuan)hahahaa
sb dkt ngan solah(tujuan die)
ktrng jln2 men bowling
bakatku da lame tak diash
last time men time ngan cuzies2 sem break dulu
kat warta
ade batrisya n alya
waaa!! sgt rindu kt syeera da..
siyes..
ap ntah die buat kat uma tu ngan opah

back to the story
then pas men boling, ktrng men game
aku dgn sewenang wenang nye g tuka token rm5
pastu aku men dance2 revolution tu
tap sgt tak best kat sane
rugi duit disamping dpt merekod vdo yg membuktikan ktrng tak reti men
ahaha
malu aku
then awin lawan men tolak2 nagn masnor
kelaka nk mam...
jnji tak tpu
apstu die lwn pack
sampai jatuh guling2
huhu
awin awin
pastu men game yg mcm carem tu
adeke si pack tu tlk bnd tu sampai kn kepale ku
tak ptt
hehe
then ktrng mkn balik(setiap detail perlu dicerite)
berebut tu tak le bla
ahaha
pastu g sj melawat org birthday
pastu dgn takde kejenye
ktrng g sunway
untuk ap kwn2?
untuk men dance2 revolution tu puas2
kali ni aku pau duit pack
ahaha
sampai la mlm
huhu
bst2
awin sgt pent
then alu ade informer yg mengatkn si pck balik2 trus tdo
ahahha

lenkali kte g tmpt2 best sket ye kengkawan
mid valley ke
tgk TALE N TIME
aku nk tgk!!!
tak aci..ade org tu da tgk
tak aci..ish..
nk tgk gk!
sile bwk sy
sile sile
ok la kwn2
sy mau try siapkn slide show
atau tdo
either way
i'm out

=) ini adlh cr 'someone' senyumm
die bitau

I WANT MY MUMMY.... =(

2009-03-30T21:46:00.000+08:00

di saat and ketika sy sedang battle with the sakit tekak n kedemaman, i just want to shout..
sy nk mak sy..uwaaaa..nk balik...tension la sakit tanpe penjagaan rapi...kalo kat uma, mest mak da jage elok2, nnti bwk air n mknn, then tuamkan kepale..uhuk uhuk..sini takde org nk wat begitu.. neway ade juge org jage sy..seperti aina n tasha.tekiu tenkiu toce toce..aina 4 blikan mee grg mmk n dadih 4 me(sanggup merentasi hujn) n tasha yg selalu suh saye berehat..itu sj sy mahu bgtau walopun sy tau takde org nk dgr/bace...huhu
ok jom smbng tgk taken
aina da tunggu lame kt bilik
slp2 aribulan
die tdo da
bkn le pcy bdk tu

p/s br je bc smthng yg makes me smile smpai ke tlinge..ngeh ngeh =)

So MoveD oN

2009-03-07T01:27:00.000+08:00

>>ni PosT agK lamE..bR poSt kaT siNi<<

okay..today i have nothing else to do..so let’s talk about a topic that i think everyone knows well..Let’s talk about love..
Love is simply not just a four letter word..ooohh..how Bob Dylan is wrong..Very wrong.Love certainly works in a extremely mysterious way.Have you ever love someone so much that iy hurts?how can it hurts when you’re actually in love.isn’t love suppose to make you happy?personally i think love can make you very happy and sad at the same time.can make you hurt and heal you at the same time.Question..how do you know if someone is your true love?your soulmate(someone might call it)?i think that the only way to find out is when you’re on your deathbed.that way you can know.even when you’re married to someone,he/she can never be what you thought because anything can happen really.I am speaking clearly from experience.Yes..once is enough to make you never wanna love again..but how can it be possible when love is the only thing that can make the world go round.you’re never outta love.mcm lagu yang ajik suke.."we’re all victims of love.."tp..kite tak penah serik..do we?how can when we give all our love..literally give your all for someone..you though that you’re gonna end up with that someone..and turned out..he/she’s the one who pulls the brake..sometimes without a clue..they say that love is blind..but i think love is not blind.we are the one who’s blinded by love..same goes to history..they say history repeat itself..but i think history’s not the one to blame..history is abstact..how can it repeat itself..we are the one who repeats history…when you’re in love..you’re blind.you live in your own world.your world is not the same with others.you just DON’t CARE about nothing else but the two of you.you don’t care bout your parents,your friends or anyone.Some even lose their own friends in pursuit of love which they thought is true at the time.but when you’re not in love,you totally see the world in a different way.the. you started saying things like.."urghh..i can’t believe that i called that son of a gun honey","i’m soo not holding his hands again..never again..(cam kelly clarkson)".hehee.The only advice i can give is never ever give your trust or love a hundred percent to someone.always keep some for yourself.that way you can never hurt that bad..that’s why they say that first love is the one that hurts the most..because it’s the first one..duHHhh..tak reti lagi..da sampai yang second or third..barula pandai..when your heart gets broken,then you realise that there’s more important things in your live.like your brother you ignore for years or grandmother who gives you money, everytime you met her for instance.The littlest things in your life seems more important..so focus on that..love will enter itself in your heart without you yourself knowing it.But the most crucial thing is to not make the same mistake twice..Learn how to draw yourself a line.toughen up that upper lip..(donna what it means but it totally sounds cool)..eventually..you’ll get over it..i know i did..Mcm Catherin McPhee ckp.."realise..i’m over it..Wanting you,to be wanting me.No that ain’t no way to be.How I feel, read my lips,because I’m so over..Moving on, it’s my time,
you never were a friend of mine.Hurt at first, a little bit,but now I’m so over.I’m so over it.."

near lost experience Pt. 1

2009-03-06T13:44:00.000+08:00

ok, aritu pada feb 2o, sy n aina telah berkungjung ke bilik awin,pd 2o hb adalh hari rabu, jadi kami tiade kelas petng.seperkunjungan kami itu, kami telah mmbuat keputusan drastik untuk pg keluar sambil menengok wayang kat jusco bukit raja untuk menengok cerite upin n ipin. sekembalinye kami ke bilik balik, kami teruslah menyiap2 kn diri untuk prgi ke jusco.kami naek cab je sb kami takdela kenderaan.pastu ade la satu cab ni, kami stop.then kami tny, pkcik bp ingit g bkt raja, then pkcik tu jwb, 12 inggit. then aku jwb balik, mhlnye cik, aritu ktrng nek 5 inggit je..dengn sgt kuang aja nye pck tu jwb. 5 inggit?!ha, kamu pg crk teksi yg 5 rinngit tu, kamu pg nek! kami dgn bengang nye, pon memaki hamun pkcik tu(di belakng) then awin pg sms komplen pkcik tu..padan muke die..hahaha..pastu, ktrng nek cab laen.after da smpai jj, kami tgk la upin ipin yg sgt la best nye smpai ktrng tak berhenti gelak dr stat smpai abes..ahhahaa..jnji kelaka..after that, ktrng kuar la,nk g mkn,,then i realized yg my wallet is missing...kelam kabut la aku lari g masuk balik wayang tu ikut pintu blakang smapi sesat2(kalo takde awin tak tau la cemane) . then crk kat seat ktrng ddk pon takde tkde..da cuak rs cm nk nages da,,the aku p tny org gsc tu die tny wallet ap aku pon jwb ngan jayenye pastu die bg balik..hahah..seb bek..itu lahceritenye..huhu..best btol..nntikan part 2. kali itu bende laen lak yg ilang..ahahha..

tak aci, blog awin mken bnyk

2009-02-16T15:51:00.000+08:00

aku menulis ini, hanye sekadar sebab aku nk lawan blog awin ni yg maken menjadi2..tak aci btol la...huhu..awin ade di sebelah sane di ptar ini, walhal aku pula berada di sebelah sini, aku ngintai seperti die sedang menengok blognye sendri.huhu..ape da..
aku sebenanye sakit pinggang ni.. meje ptar ni tinggi sgt n kerusi nye plak sgt la rendahnya..ntah pape la..ni br abes kelas bel, bosan la blaja bel sem ni..bukan blaja pon, ktrng kn wat report,sgt menyampah...no essay writing that i love so much, no reading comprehension, no filling in the blanks..huhu..sgt bosan...awin plak skng da maken mantap dlm pelajaran...pg td dlm math sume lec tny die jwb ngan jayanye...die ckp, skang ni zaman kebangkitannye..tak aci.. aku nk bangkit gak.(dengkui btol ngan awin sknag ni)..huhu..skng ni awin telah menjadi kwn yg aku bgtau rahsie..hahah..seb die juge berkongsi hati yg same ngan aku about someone..n die da blah, tinggalkan aku sornag2 kat ptar ni..hampeh aku nk bg die bc..huhuu..takpe, next time bebeh..ahhaha..ade cte menarik n klaka. time awin lalu kat sensor time nk kuar library ni, buzzer itu telah berbunyik.. myabe sb besi bra die kot..Huhuhuhuhuauhauahauhauhaua
*sambil gelak guling2*

ok la,,since aku da bersendiri ni, rs cm lonely lak..sy nka balik la plak..nk tdo..then bngn2 mesti da berbuke pose..huhu ;)
daaa....latro

AKU BOSAN THP GABAN

2009-02-10T16:36:00.000+08:00

Currently aku tgh kat PTAR ni..in case ure wondering, PTAr4 stands 4 Perpustakaan Tunku AbduL Rahman ke4 since kat uitm ni bersepah2 ptar ni. aku sebenanye tgh tunggu awin setel kerje die ni..beselah, awin can't live without me..huhu..td ktarng baru balik dr makn cendol kat sek7 tepi jln tu..aku,awin,alip,masnor,pacak,we, n our beloved tumpangan khif..hahaha..seronk gk making new friends..wina n tasha td pesan cendol, pastu kensel, so terpaksela aku bayar je kat abg tu mybe die cucu pakcik akob kot(awin's favourite)..hahaha..then aku bg kat alip.suh budak umah die mkn.. mesti bob melantak sampai habis kot..pasni abesla die syg aku lebih..ahahahah..neway i got 2 tests tomolo..static n hydrology..mampos nk jwb ap nth...da la test math aritu pon cm hampeh jew..tension aku..cemane nk stadi ni..aku da r ngantuk gle..tak ble bla..ha..about BANAUSIC tu, tunggu je la yek sambungan dr aku..time2 aku tak bz le r goreng ayat..skang tgh bz doing nothing tak le r..aku ckp sesorng r ni..takde sape pon nk bace blog ni..just for my own satisfaction..pasal ptptn ni pla, tak tau la ble nk dpt..dari sehari ke sehari aku menunggu mu..penat da..tak sabr da ni.. aku nk bli beg mango satu ni jumpe kat mid valley..beg ren aku tu da koyak rabak..kesian aku..huhu..pastu aku nk bli buku static..hahah(bercite2 tinggi)
wish me luck(to whoever's readinG), untuk tests aku esk..
bye bye now
chow

BANAUSIC

2009-02-08T17:02:00.000+08:00

*thinking about making up a a story..*

Episode 1 : The girl she couldn't be

There was once lived a beautiful girl. Her eyes are brown and
her skin is as smooth as a peach. When you look at her, you
obviously can't seem to find any flaw. She lived with her
parents and they were very poor. Her dad was a farmer while
her mother was cleaning houses. They lived in the woods coz
it's all that they can afford. She was an obedient daughter
and all she does is work her butt off helping her parents.
She sometimes would go deep into the woods to pick apples and
make them into their dinner. She would sing songs and her
voice beats Kelly Clarkson and i'm sure that if she went to
the American Idol audition, she'd won the contest. And after
she had picked the apples off the trees, she would sit on
fallen log and dream about the life that she couldn't have.
She'd dream about a castle and a handsome prince and how she
wouldn't have to eat apple sauce everyday. But, everyday her
dreams would be crashed by the sounds of her mother calling
her name from a distance. And she'd walked back home
disappointed and still not giving up the dream.

She's coming=i'm drying(coz i'm like this rose.. ;) )

2009-02-01T16:45:00.001+08:00

i gOtta turn off the songs in order to write something, coz i can't concentrate......

it seems like just a while ago i post something, and it's something about kolin if i remembered it correctly..huhu..i've been in this empty room since yesterday and i never liked it better..and yes, i like living alone..away from this person thingy..huhu..i've been her so-called rumate since i think 2 years da.. and some time apart would be great, coz now i've been having difficulties to say anything nice about her to someone else..yeah, that's what happened when you're living with someone for a long time. U eventually got sick of everything and i mean every single thing that she/he does. Whatever you know. Even the littlest things. I'd get disgusted even when she comb her hair and leave strands of hair on the floor(then i have to sweep it off),i'd go ballistic if she'd go on a shopping spree and get those shoes that I'VE been wanting to buy ever since i laid eyes on them, then there's the boy problem... She seems to wanna lay her hands on every guy that she met..And that annoys me to my very core...

I don't know..If somebody else reads this, maybe they'll think that i'm jealous but the fact is, i'm NOT..

and on a happier note, someone told me, (fa to be exact), that we will be receiving our loan maybe sometime next week..huhu..and i have to be careful not to spend them all on one shopping spree...there's so much on my mind that i wanna buy, but time will tell if i'd ever go through with them.

Just don't tell anyone what you read here coz if i'm not mistaken, ppl say that what happens in blogspot, stays at blogspot(i actually made that up)..hahaha

Wish me luck living here coz in couple of hours or minutes, she'll be back here. getting on my nerve just thinking about it..and that sucks out loud.....

~~tRibUte(weLL nOt eXcatLY) mOre lIke a LasH oUt tO zugspitszy

2009-02-01T10:18:00.000+08:00

GettinG reaDy for our rOmantiC diNner...waaa..proud to call u mine babe..

The Love oF mY liFe Ed Westwick @ Chuck Bass

sume org tgk ntah ape shima tunjuk

kolin, the dearly beloved(kipas je ni)

Us....

Ok, now to fullfill my promise to cik kolin kte, a post dedicated specially to her

.I knew cik kolin since high school, form 3(i think), to be exact.Then, she was just a girl from magenta, which i am not particularly best friends with.Hahahah(cte lame).Selepas itu, we went to the same matriculation in Gopenghagen, i remember strictly how kolin n gang(which include aju, shima,ahya and kolin's bff in the whole wide word whose name i will not include in this) teach me with dedication how to balik uma nek bus.which until then i never ride..(so upper east siders..)if i remember correctly, i duduk sblh aju n kolin sat next to shima atul ladida..moreover, not to forget the times where kte slalu g jj ipoh.(eh jap, ko ade ke ek?)huhu..short term memory loss..ade ade. ko n shima beli beg padini kan..ahahha..aku jln ngan aju..ade ade..

Kolin, sucessfully finished matric and extend her studies kat usm mechanical(manufac) eng. whereas mua dgn tak banggenye quit matric to study diploma in civil engineering berhampiran dgn usm tmpt letaknye kolin td.Rupe-rupenye ade hikmah disebalik the action of me quitting matric(dayak dpt kembali bersama kolin);)..so it begins..a new adventure of kolin n dayak.

So, sometimes when i wanna go home, i would text/call kolin to ask to ride along since kolin bawak kete..and i remember clearly muke kolin time i wanna pay her...her exactly 'ala, takyah la dayak,tak yah...banyk sgt ni'

*benti jap, ade lagu best nk sing-along*

ok sambung

huhu..klaka kan budak ni
ha..and i remembered this one day i went and suprised her at usm.then she took me on a guided trip around usm..eh, tu lain la,time to ko bwk aku g kedai buku sb ko nk bli buku. time tu aku tumpng ko balik peneng..ahahha..salh episode..

then fast foward to this very day..kolin, i just wanna say la,after all that we've been through, sampai ati ko wat aku cenggini...ko da ade haikal, nape ko nk kaco bf a.k.a suami aku lagi..aku da la takde org nk, bile ade sangkut srg, ko lak nk kaco kaco.aku sgt tak phm kenape kolin???why??why??
He's Chuck Bass for God's cake..and He's MINE..ALONE...

Here's a stern admonition : LEAVE HIM ALONE

Let's revise, why the heck did i love Chuck so much
1- He's so darn cute
2- He's mysterious
3- He's filthy rich
4- He's got Bart for a father(who's also filthy, if he's not dead)
5- He has connection with the right ppl
6- He's got style..and I like..;)
7- He always get what he wants(which is me)
8- He doesn't like u, kolin
9- He thinks i'm uberPretty..
10- He never wanna be without me(hahaha..aku tiru lagu ni)
11- He whispers sweet words to me every night..(x-rated, under 21 tak le bace)
12- He's got good taste in fashion
13- He rides a limo to school
14- Knows how to throw one hell of a party
15- i'm running outta ideas

so, ko pikirlah sendri kolin, ape yg ko da buat kat kwn ko ni...just think..and now u only have 2 choices whether to
a) Leave him alone
or
b) Leave him alone..

so, goodbye and Goodnight

Sunday,February 01, 2009, 0138

p/s to anybody who wants their stories to be written by me, text or call me on my cell or just leave me a comment at friendster or facebook under the name 'dayana death'

~liFe aT tHe kOnoNyE bIg ciTy...~~

2009-01-21T12:58:00.000+08:00

So, skang da hmpr sebulan kat shah alam, n i'm still thinking, Penang beats the crap outta S.A..hahha..sgt kejam..but it's totally true..for now la..esok2 tak tau la plak kan..belajar??hurm..kelas static aku asyik tdo je sb Mr. Bon tu sgt la romantic..hahaha...n satu lagi, kelas water,,wawawaw..sgt la terase nk tdo..die aja je ktrng trus menguap....new friends???ade la due tige..but i'm still hanging out with aina..yg len sy tak layan...jht gle..keje aku kat sini tdo je...ade free time je aku tdo..if u come to my room, b2-02-41,u can see me n my roomie sleep our heads off...it's weird that usually i'm uber-good with words, but now tak tau la nk ckp ap..td mcm bnyk bende je nk cte, skang i'm lost....ok r, jumpe next time k..latro

tEll Me tEll Me bABy....

2008-11-27T13:04:00.000+08:00

Since you have been gonethere're words i need you to knowi can't seem to tell it to youcoz i'm scared that i'll burst to tearsbut that was thenand this is me nowi really don't give a damn bout you nowwhere you've been,what you're doingi really don't care
i know you're too busy to listenbut what the hell,imma say anyway
i washed all the clothes you worethree timesso they don't smell like youi ripped all of your picturesin my phoneso i don't look at you
Can't believe i'd ever survived thisbut here i am now, ever so strongthere's no more tears coming my way nowyou're something that's not in my mindthat was thenand this is me now
i know you're too busy to listenbut what the hell,imma say anyway
Thank you i must sayfor doing the things you didfor i didn't saw it clearly beforehow much i've changehow old i've grownhow pretty i've beensince you
so go ahead and do your things nowdon't bother me from now oni'm nothing to youand you're nothing to methe words you saidthe things you didmeans nothing..you're better off without meand i am too.

2008-11-27T13:01:00.000+08:00

tell me babytell me if you're thinking of me
tell me i've been on your mindcoz it's you that's on my mind
i knew that for sureit's been a long timeso long that i lost tracks of timesometimes i wonder what's going on in your headis it the same thing that's going through minenow wait a minutebecause of youi don't know where i'm going anymorebecause of youi can't pretend anymorei don't think you knew
you never knewthere's nothing new
you don't even careit's so unfair
there's nothing more to sayliving from day to day
there's nothing more to doand it's all because of you i can get used to thiswithout you holding my wristi used to never resist
you treat me like i'm nothingmaking me feel uselessyou left me all alone searchingthought you knew how it feel

2008-11-27T12:56:00.000+08:00

He doesn't deserved herHe deserved someone much better,He's too good,too kind, too everything for her,He'll be better off without her,I can't understand how he could stand herThere's just no word to described herI can't believe how they'd ended up together,Patience is what keeps him going,Ignore everything that she's doing,
Why can't she just open her eyes and see,That everything isn't how it supposed to be,We were supposed to be happy,Happy, happy, happy as a family,They all ask how could i lie to her,But the real question is how could I not?I make up stories to tell them about herCoz i really have nothing to speak of,They don't know how she's really like,If they do, she'll be someone they'll despite,But of her I can't Speak ill of,For she's blood, She's love,For love that hurts and breaks.
The way she shouts, she scream, she swears,The way that she just doesn't care,Her hipocracy that is beyond words,The way that she makes us hurts
Her words are sharp beyond swords,Her hits are painful beyond the cuts,Her face is a disgrace to her kind,Her eyes are empty as the vast skies.
She's a different person with someone else,and back to herself when we're alone,She always thinks that she knows best,When the fact that she's all wrong
As much as as I want to stay here,I'd really like to go as far away from here,Away from all the bullshitness she brings,Away from all the misery she caused,
Though I have no money, no friends and no family,It's you who i felt sorry for,Your heart is black, black as the night sky,And there's just no way to make it right again.
And for you my dearest,I wish you all the best,For you'd spend your life with her,I'm sorry that i have to leave you once again,Coz i'm not as strong as you,Keep your pride and heart afloat,Then you'll be nothing like her,I'll be always thinking of you...
XOXOXO

~~neW bloG!!!

2008-11-09T13:54:00.001+08:00

well i'm supposed to study for this this i'm having this 11th nov but i can't seem to face the book and read it..go figure..n then kolin mengjak aku ke arh kemungkaran..ahahha..sori kolin..tak bermaksud...water en.ali...1 kombinasi yng tak dpt dipisahkan..ahhaa..i can count how many times i've been to his class and believe me..it ain't many..currently i'm obssesed with supernatural though i'm a little bit late compare to the world...ni plak salahkan dalila..sp suh bg aku tgk...huhu...currently waiting for faris to burn the 3rd n 4th season..cepatla sket pkcik...smlm 1 spend rm 26 eating kat damiral's grill and skng duitku hny tnggl rm40 to survive smpai this 18th..don't ever bother asking my mum for money, coz if i do again, she'd kill me...so..like it or not..time to diet..ahahaha...ok la..skang i nk try to finish kyle xy plak..ahaha..then i'll consider the options of studying..until next time..latro

Alienated Diminutive Haggard

2008-11-09T13:22:00.000+08:00

There's a lump in my throat
It's killing me,but i can't seem
To see the way to make it dissapear
The pain carry like a baby
Like a part of me is dragging my own feet
Phasing me down with every step i take
It's been that way since i lived
my blackened heart can't feel a thing
My deceipt soul just drift outta place
If i should sacrifice myself for me
I would
As crazy as it sounds
The world can't seem to understand
The things i go through
I'm like a walking corpse
Getting outta my ajar coffin
Strangling through tree roots
Across the graveyard
With my decayed body and pale face
Remembering my own burial day
With people giving speeches
Saw the whole thing but i can't seem to do anything about it
It's like a glass wall
I can see through
All these tears i'm swimming through
It's taking me nowhere i wanted to go
And left me here by my own mistakes
The ones i made without my own sanity
Everywhere i go
People keep on giving cursory glance
Alibi,i got none
I'm just an alienated diminutive haggard
All my life i'm cursed
Try to articulate the facts,i'm failing

Alienated Diminutive Haggard

the beautiful letdown

bersawang2

malu seumur hidup

mari rakan rakan

I NEED TO KNOW!

something for u to read..

i pray~

a little something i like to say to your face but obvie i can't

Again and again..

insomnia macm dong young-bae a.k.a TaeYang..

esk blk uma

assmnt society

FFOOODDDDD..love them cant live w'out them

ECG : Foundation Engineering

aktiviti weekend ini...=)

a new beginning..

something new

random thoughts...

Library tingkat 6

kepokaian

where do you go when you're lonely?

Emergency 999

dlm kls hgwy.hehe

my dinosaur life...

always love..lalalla

Forever and Almost Always..

karut marut

tade keje..wat smbik skyping ngan awin

lines of the day

sengal2 badan..

lokie lookie here, what i found...=)

9 januari 2010

memalukan diri sen dri

Holiday vacation..

org tak phm susa

Confession of a closet poet~

90210

resume

LAme-OO

tu someone yg ske bace blog aku ni

While Diving, drink the water(direct translet) ahaha

ptar ntah bape ni..(shout to Farieza Hanis Hashim Bakhtiar)

Life goes on...and on..and on...and on..and on...

Better Off Alone,,, =(

Penyabar atau tidak?

beri aku hidayah

L.O.V.E is just another word i never learn to pronounce..

Lost Soul Forever

post ringkas dan padat

~last weekend...~~

my expenses..

untuk awin supaye die tak kecik ati..I lOvE You AwiN

pendek sj

I miss you

The One With The Morning After

da balik uma....

The One With All The TV Shows..

life at home

life at home

A Night Filled With Laughter.. =P

~~ CTU 533 ~~

mengantuk+malas

10th April 2009 FRIDAY

cerite yg panjang.....sb da pagi ni..aku tak tdo lagi

I WANT MY MUMMY.... =(

So MoveD oN

near lost experience Pt. 1

tak aci, blog awin mken bnyk

AKU BOSAN THP GABAN

BANAUSIC

She's coming=i'm drying(coz i'm like this rose.. ;) )

~~tRibUte(weLL nOt eXcatLY) mOre lIke a LasH oUt tO zugspitszy

~liFe aT tHe kOnoNyE bIg ciTy...~~

tEll Me tEll Me bABy....

~~neW bloG!!!

Alienated Diminutive Haggard

CTU 533